The verbosity, or wordage that consistently, or not, makes up that which I like to think of as ‘my mind’ may or may not be entirely coherent to either the sender or receiver of the message which is communicated, or, at very least, is attempted to be communicated, if I am allowed to use such a tense.

I do enjoy the aspect of communication, but I desire to play with words, which, much to my amusement, can completely obscure a simplistic phrase with a mask of incongruence.

For example, many of my thoughts and arguments are well thought out and organized. I don’t often say things without a purpose (unless I think that the situation calls for it.) Many times I present my statements with a subtle flourish that leaves my listener confused by my “randomness” and myself quite satisfied that I have said my peace and have easily overshot the comprehension of my audience.

Directness has it’s place. When I am giving instructions on how a task is to be done, step by step instructions are usually a necessity. Details are of utmost importance. But in “inconsequential” daily banter, the freedom of expression can be allowed the importance. My goal is not necessarily to confuse people, although I usually know what/how to say something in a manner that might.

If the common response was not the typical “Say what? — You’re really weird.” and instead was a moment of thought, connecting my statement with the flow of the conversation, perhaps a reflection or two on different allusions, there would be a chance for higher comprehension, a better understanding and maybe, just maybe, a bit of intellectual growth.

I connect everything to everything. A cliche or proverb may seem out of place, but with a small change in wording or understanding, it can make perfect sense.

In short, my thoughts make perfect sense in context, but I leave context to be filled in by the participants. (Note the conciseness that I can achieve, when desired.)

An incomplete example is stuck in my mind as I write this. I was having a conversation with someone and knowing how they would react, I was keeping my references slightly obscured, partly to make them think but mostly for my own enjoyment. We were talking about what was acceptable in a given situation. My point was that the acceptability needed to be judged externally. For example, in a professional situation an action’s acceptability would need to be judged by either a higher position (a boss or manager) or from the view of someone lesser (such as a customer or client.) An employee has to live along company guidelines. This, I felt, was too wordy, but could easily be summarized by the old adage: “beauty is in the eye of the beholder.” And that is what I said.

So what is the end cause? I don’t know yet. Achieving a better understanding of ones self is usually a step forward. I would say “admitting that you have a problem is the first step towards recovery,” but I don’t see this as a problem. I am more than capable of clarity when the situation calls for it, and I certainly don’t act like this all the time.

Perhaps this might be more of a sounding call. To see if anyone else thinks along these lines. Or maybe it’s just a general interest piece meant to inspire others to open their minds to knew ideas or means of communication. It might be a call for help, not in terms of stopping, but in terms of how to improve said technique and truly master this art of subtly.